Every so often, I ask myself what I want to do with my life, so I thought I would put it down for all to see. I want to be somebody. I don't necessarily want to be noteworthy in a historic sense, but I want to be a person who truly enjoys their life. I want to have experiences that, when looked at holistically, I am seen as a well-rounded and enviable individual. I want to be admired and esteemed by those who do happen to meet me. I do not wish to be feared, but I do wish to have others find it extremely distasteful to think about contending with me in any way, shape, or form.
It takes certain experiences to become that person, and certain skills gained from those experiences. so...
I desire to learn languages; spanish, french, german, russian, portuguese, polish, chinese, japanese, korean, arabic, and hebrew are the ones I would most like to add to my list. I currently speak english, and can get by with ASL.
I want to be capable in close- and long-range combat. I don't necessarily desire to hurt people. I do know that I will have to eventually, because there are always people out there who are looking to hurt Americans; with a narrow world view of all americans being a part of the enemy, they see me, my mother, father, siblings, and extended family as equal targets compared to anybody else who is an American Citizen. I will relentlessly protect my country, because if my enemies don't discriminate my family from other Americans, I can't have that luxury. I am preparing to join the military after I finish college, in case any of you are wondering.
I want to learn to create all manner of things. I want to become an artisan, with the ability to create many wonderful objects worthy of consideration of master-craft. I want to be a competent brewer, able to sell my quality product to people should I choose. I want to be a skilled carpenter and welder, capable of building anything from wooden chairs to small boats. I want to learn to make pottery, and blow glass. I want to have these skills.
i want to learn how to move more deftly; i want to learn how to breakdance, free-run, fence, tango, scuba dive, and sail. i want to play tennis, golf, and volleyball. I want to get back into lacrosse.
I want to become more artistic. I want to learn to draw, paint, and sculpt. I want to be good at singing again. I want to learn to play the piano, the guitar, and possibly the trumpet. I want to be trained again in both jazz and classical music. I want to learn to be able to play by ear again on the saxophone.
I want to learn how to be a better gardener. I want to be able to grow both plants that do and do not produce fruit. I want to be considered a capable landscape architect.
I want to be a good public speaker again. I want to be able to make people laugh, cry, and feel emotion because of my words. I want others to listen when I speak in crowds. I also want to be a desired speaker. I want others to come to me for information. I want to have information to be able to impart.
I want to be physically sated, and emotionally connected to someone.
I want to have my own child, who, if they choose, can surpass anything and everything I have, will, or can achieve. I want to be the giant that they stand on the shoulders of in order to reach the stars.
I want to do all of these things, and many more… and then die. I want to die while i am awake, with friends and family near, in a place i love. I want to be celebrated, not mourned. I want to be cremated with my ashes mixed into soil and have a fruit-bearing tree planted in it.
What do you want from life? I'll just throw this out there for all my current and future readers - if you know how to help me achieve these, or would like to have help with your own goals, just let me know. I promise i'll be receptive.
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